Thursday, July 19, 2018
How do you set your goals? Track them? How often do they get forgotten about?
I will admit, I set goals. It is what I do. I like to see my progress and like to check things off lists sometimes. But I also have to admit, as the days go by, some of the goals get set aside. Why? Because sometimes circumstances change and the goal just doesn't fit, sometimes I forget about it, and sometimes I find that it just doesn't fit as I am going along.
The bigger goals I break out a little into mini goals to help keep moving forward. Sometimes I set rewards to keep motivated and sometimes I just let reaching the goal be the reward. It all depends on how long it will take to reach the goal.
This year I decided to try and set some goals in most areas of my life. Physical health goals, emotional, spiritual, mental, dreams, business, writing, reading, lifestyle. I also added some much need to-do list projects to my goal list in hopes that they would get done.
When I set them at the beginning of the year I also set the intent to re-evaluate in March. Well, March came and went, now it is July and I decided to look at what I wrote.
I realized I failed. I didn't re-evaluate. I didn't meet a bunch of them because, well, because I forgot about a lot of them or was actually further behind than forward on some. Had I checked in in March would I have been further along on them? Maybe, maybe not.
There are some that I have been working on, sometimes battling, for a while now. But it wasn't until recently that stuff aligned to give me that swift kick in the butt I needed.
About a week I ago, I pulled the papers out where I wrote them. A little uncertain because I knew things weren't quite where I had hoped for back when I had written them.
As it turned out, there were quite a few I could actually check off because they were done and I didn't realize it. Some I could just cross off entirely because it wasn't a part of my journey any more. Some I started out strong on and then when I wasn't seeing results I let them go. And some didn't fully begin to even start working until I got the swift kick in the butt (so to speak).
Chances are, had I re-evaluated in March, some of them may have been crossed off too soon because I wasn't seeing the results . So there is some good in waiting, but also to keep putting certain goals back in because down the road may be better timing.
I believe that I am in a much better spot, inside and out, today than I was when I first made the goals to re-evaluate than I was in March.
I feel I can tackle these with more focus and more intensity where I need to.
So, have you checked in with your goals recently?
One of the things I took away from me from a workshop I went to four years ago was the idea of an end goal. What do I want it to look like at the end of a certain goal. Then I can set the pieces in motion or break them out as needed to be able to work towards them.
Time to look at mine and do some re-evaluating, resetting, and putting the pieces into motion that are needed.
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
- Say I am sorry and sorry for what
- How can I fix it?
- Do you forgive me
Last night was one those moments.
Last night, I was tired. I have not being sleeping well again. When I don't have restful sleep often enough, my patience is less and my frustration goes up more quickly. I was tired and by the end of the day, after my kids were in bed, my patience was gone.
So when my oldest came out of his room, after being tucked in and told goodnight to, for the third time I was a bit irritated. Why? Not because he came out, but because he decided at that moment he was incapable of closing his bedroom door after having gone to the bathroom. He battled me on it, begged me, told me he couldn't do it, but he wanted me to do it, but he didn't want to all from the top of the stairs which are right under his brother's room.
I lost what little patience I had mustered and I yelled. Yes, I yelled. I don't yell often, but it does happen. I don't like it and neither does anyone else around me at the time.
I told him that I was not going to close his door for him because he was perfectly capable of doing it himself. He told me yes. After the back and forth I told him to go to bed and if he didn't want to close the door himself it would just stay open for the night. I was not going to close it. After a bit more I yelled, he stomped back to his room and closed his door (nicely surprisingly).
Fortunately my youngest remained asleep during this whole time.
As I sat on the couch, letting things go and letting calm in, I knew what I had to do. I had to apologize and ask for forgiveness. I knew he wasn't asleep yet (I could hear him playing with stuffies in his room). So I took a deep breathe, went in, and chatted with him.
I chatted with him like it was no big deal. I apologized and told him why I yelled, that it wasn't the right thing. Before I got to asking for forgiveness, he looked at me with a smile and said "I forgive you mom". Laid down and said goodnight.
I was in awe of how much grace this 5 year old had just given me. We had the conversation with such ease.
Apologize and ask for forgiveness. Such a little thing, but can make a huge difference in the way things go.
Tuesday, July 17, 2018
Never forget to nurture yourself & your needs
Unraveling the stresses, the guilt, the negative emotions, letting yourself
Release, rest, rejuvenate and be able to rise, feeling full after
Taking time to trust, to talk, to do the things you enjoy,
Utilizing the things that fill you up & nourish you, bring you the energy you need
Readying you to rise to face the day
Each day ~ enlightened, energized, and ready to embrace what is in front of you
Friday, July 13, 2018
You see, health, fitness, and diet are as unique as the individual going through it. But there are some things that can be learned to help one grow in their knowledge that does cover all.
I am going to share with you my journey up until now and keep adding to it as I continue down this path.
Some of you may be able to relate, some may not. But I hope there is something you can take away from it all somewhere along the way.
This journey really ramped up about 2 1/2 years ago, but it goes back further than that. So I am going to use one day during the week to talk about this topic from my own personal experience and journey.
I encourage you to follow along and to share your thoughts and experiences along the way.
For the time being, the titles for these posts will start off with Health, Fitness, Diet and follow up with what the main theme is from the post.
Thursday, July 12, 2018
Sometimes in the mix of all that, well, we sometimes loose sight of who we are and taking care of ourselves gets placed on the back burner while we take of the others around us and the other responsibilities we have.
You need to take care of you. Yup, you heard me. You need to take care of you. It is an important piece to the puzzle. You can't fuel others up and fill them up without taking time to fuel you and fill yourself up.
How many times do we make excuses to set us aside? I don't have the time, our schedules are always busy, no one to watch the kids, and so on.
Did you know you can still take care of yourself even if the kids are around? You can say yes to you, the things you enjoy. Of course it is easier to do sometimes when you are alone. But think about it. During the day, where are times you can say yes to you and your time that is needed?
It doesn't have to be long. Sometimes 5 minutes is all it takes. It may mean that you have to put the remote down, the social media down, the online games down. I know, it's easy, accessible, and just sort of becomes habit. I have been known to zone out to a couple hours at nap time or in the evening watching NCIS reruns.
While yes, this is nice sometimes, aren't there other things that you enjoy? What gives you energy? Make a list. And while you are at it, divide your page into two columns. Write the things that give you energy in one and in the other, write the things that zap your energy. I know, laundry and dishes aren't always energy boosts for most people, but there are just some things that have to get done.
I got the idea to write out the things that give me energy and the things that zap it from an Abundant Mama Project activity. After writing my lists out, I decided to take it one step further. I decided to find ways to decrease the amount of time on those energy zappers to the point where the task is done more quickly, I don't do it, or have changed my perspective on the activity. As for those things that give me energy, I made the decision to set a time in the week for them.
I also listed out the chores while I was at it, because for me, while they don't give me energy, they also don't zap it either. But gone left undone for too long can cause issues in itself.
I put all into a schedule. I took the things that give me energy and put something to each day of the week, at least Monday through Friday. I figure I would leave the weekends open and see where they lead. The chores, I did the same thing. I broke them out and gave them a schedule for a day during the week.
By doing this, it helps me fuel up and fill my tank each day. It also has helped cleaning and chores to get done weekly, but not feel like a struggle. Though I do laundry on the weekend, I try to have it washed early in the week and pick a night or nap time while watching TV to fold it. Now, I have to admit, the kids stuff gets put away rather quickly, however I have a tendency to leave the basket full of my own and hubby's stuff in our room. At least it is clean, out of the basement, folded.
None of this is a fool proof method. There are some days where I just set it all aside and zone out to TV and social media during my downtime. There are also some days where I try to incorporate what fuels me into the activities we are doing as a family or the activities I am doing with kids. Added bonus, both my kids love to just sit and color. Both also love to be outside. A lot of times they want to create their own world, which means I get some time to do my own thing. So either I join in or I do a chore that needs to be done or I find some way I can yes to me during that time. Even if it means a few sips from the now cold coffee that I have given up on trying to reheat and drop a few ice cubes in it to make it an iced coffee.
Saying yes to you can be an activity that has a cost, like a coffee shop stop, purchasing something you've wanted, or pedicure type things or it can just simply be sitting on the porch while the kids play happily and you do your own thing. It doesn't always have to come with a price tag.
For now: reading, being outside, creative time, writing, exercising are a few things that fuel me. So those are the things I try to incorporate each day of the week. Not necessarily all of them every day, but they all get added into my week.
Since doing this I have noticed a lot of things. I have noticed my attitude has begun to change, more positive. I, most nights, sleep better. I feel more connected, more grounded. My perspective has shifted, I get to have me time (even with kids in tow).
How about you? What brings you energy? What drains it? How can you find time for yourself each day, even if it is only 5 minutes (down the road, try to add more time on to it)? What do you do for you to take care of the you piece to the puzzle?
Take the time because you deserve it. You are worth it. Take the time because it will benefit everyone. Make it a priority, even if you have to schedule it. Down the road, it will become natural and a part of your daily flow and balance.
Tuesday, July 10, 2018
Thursday, July 5, 2018
Life is like a puddle, you can either:
Carefully, strategically walk or step around it,
Sometimes staying dry and in the clear, sometimes leading to sinking in the mud
Try to leap over it as far as you can, maybe missing it completely or catching just the edge
Just walk right on through and continue on
Slow down, get your footing, and step where you easily can
Run through it with a big splash, turn around and do it again
It all depends on the moment, the season we are in, the path we are on
Sometimes it may be one mistake in a moment, sometimes many in that moment. But we all make them. Why? Because we are always learning and growing. Mistakes are a part of that process. What matters is how we handle those mistakes.
What do we do with them? How do we respond? What can we learn from them? How do we move forward? How do we take what is needed from the experience, learn from, and let it go?
All the mistakes, along with the successes, are what make up our journey. We can either pile them up on our shoulders or lay them down as stones on our path.
If we choose to place them on our shoulders, then one of two things can happen. If we pile only mistakes on our shoulders then we begin to feel weighted, unworthy, undervalued. We begin to let more fear, guilt, worry, anxiety in and our inner negative self critic begins to get too strong a foothold and won't let go easily.
Or if it is only successes we pile up, then we begin to have an unrealistic view of reality. Our ego gets a bit of a big head and pride rears it's head.
So, instead, let's place them all...all the mistakes...all the successes....under our feet, helping to guide us on this journey.
Not always easy, I know. But this all got me thinking or well, what my oldest said to me got me thinking. You see, he told me he doesn't want to make mistakes, hates them, and won't make them anymore. Which then lead to him saying he wanted things to be perfect.
For a moment, I wondered where he picked this up. I know I try to make things perfect, but I am learning that perfect doesn't really exist in the sense of our expectations and to be okay with that. We can plan, dream, try to set things up to be "perfect" but in the end, there are things that don't go quite right and we need to be okay with that sometimes. Now, that is not to say that there aren't moments that are perfect, where everything seems to come together just right, have a good flow, good timing and in any other circumstances wouldn't have happened. But to have everything be "perfect" all of the time, for everything, in every way, that just isn't how it goes.
I don't like making mistakes I told him. No one does. But what matters is what we do when they happen. Because you know what, it is going to happen.
He told me he still doesn't like when they happen.
I know, neither do it. What is important is that we really try our best. If we make a mistake, we fix it.
This, for the time being, ended our conversation. But I know the topic will come back around again. It is my hope that I can help teach my sons to lay down their success and mistakes under their feet and help guide them over this terrain, so that one day they can look at those spots in their lives and see how far they have come.
Tuesday, July 3, 2018
We told the kids if it is raining we may have to find something else to do. Well, it was raining, but the berry line said they were still open. Despite the rain and the voice in the back of my head telling me we should just change our plans to avoid disappointment and the fits that succumb to that disappointment usually, we agreed to give it a try.
And like my youngest said, "if we can't because of the rain, no biggie. We will find something else to do". A few weeks back we had been invited to go berry picking with friends, but opted to pass as I didn't want to navigate two kiddos picking by myself (A's first time actually picking) or the mud from the day of rain before. At that point the kids said that was fine, A wanted to stay home anyways, and they both wanted to go when we could go with daddy.
The gates were still open when we arrived and the rain was starting to pick up. We got ourselves set up for picking in the rain and head to the entrance in hopes we could still sneak in before they closed up due to rain. As luck would have it, we were the last group of to get to go out in the field. Smiles and all we road the tractor ride.
Despite the rain, we still tried anyways. I don't know what the kids liked more, picking berries or riding on the tractor ride. But what I do know is that both kids were thankful for it that night when we did prayers.
Added bonus, a day later, despite the heat, we went for a short walk around our block to check out the blackberries in our backyard. There was enough ready to fill a couple of small containers and there are still many left to ripen for picking later in the week.
Take the time.
Release, and find rest & rejuvenation
Ease emotion, enter energy
Change control, become more centered
AMP it up, become alive again
Revamp by recreating rituals & routines
Give grace, get gratitude
Each day's end begins anew, envelope yourself with excitement