Wednesday, December 3, 2014

939 days, 6,574 days

18 years 0 months 0 days
or 216 months 0 days
or 939 weeks 1 days
or 6,574 days
or 157,776 hours
or 9,466,560 minutes
or 567,993,600 seconds 

I have had some idea of how precious life is, but haven't always lived my life in a way that makes the most of out of the time.  Sure, certain times of year I have lived with more intent, savoring the moments, but over the long its few and far between.

When we lost our daughter the reality of life and just how short it could be really hit home.  And it hit hard.  But then like most things, I got myself busy again and lost in the daily grind so to speak.  Then our son arrived.

Once we were past the newborn stage, where I like many others, really couldn't tell you the day because of being sleep deprived.  When asked what I did for the day it consisted of, feed the baby, change the baby, let the baby sleep.

As time went by, I began to look for forward in the weeks, months, and year.  Planning things out, creating my own inner stories of how things would go.  Sometimes, letting the fear and worry get the best of me.  I knew I needed to slow down, focus on the day, live with intent, and really live in the days moments.

Sure, I still plan, but I try to not let it play over and over in my head the outcome possibilities.  I try to let negative, the worry, the fear lift up to God.  Then, I focus on what is right in front of me and being present.  Yes, I do tune out and yes I do my own thing.  When my son is happy playing on his own, I do my own thing.  But I am not afraid to put what I am doing down to take in whatever the moment may present.

I have heard the, there are only this many Saturdays until your little one turns 18 and is out own on their own.  But it didn't really hit home until I read "How 936 Pennies Will Forever Change How You Parent".  (http://erynlynum.com/how-936-pennies-will-forever-change-how-you-parent/).

In the author's words: "This is when I realize something monumental to motherhood– that as I withdraw those pennies from that jar on my desk, they are not being lost, misplaced, or tossed out to never see again. They are being invested. They are creating something new, something of great beauty, bravery, and Kingdom importance."

So, it's not that you have that much time left, so make the most of them as you can before they are lost, gone forever.  Instead, it's an investment.  Just think, what kind of impact you can have when you invest.  Create the moments, build the memories, share the stories, live in the present, savor the slow.

18 years 0 months 0 days
or 216 months 0 days
or 939 weeks 1 days
or 6,574 days
or 157,776 hours
or 9,466,560 minutes
or 567,993,600 seconds