Wednesday, July 29, 2015

The end of the story or the beginning?

Life is full of ups and downs, twists and turns, good things and not so good, changes, memories, hardships.  How we work through these things, the perspective we take, the outcomes, all are a part of life's journey.  So, is it the end of a story or the beginning?

When things change, something ends and something begins.  But does that mean the story is over?  Not necessarily.  It's a start of a new chapter...a twist or turn, an up or down.  Just because there is change, doesn't mean the story has to be done, it just means that where we are at in life's journey is going to be different.

We are moving at the end of the next month.  We've been in our current house for 9 years.  A lot has happened in 9 years.  There are many emotions and memories in this place.  We never thought we'd be where we are for this long.  In fact, we figured we would have moved well before now.  But as things go, we stayed and it felt right.

Now, it's time for us to move.  We are a growing family and we are running out of space.  Moving is hard, this will be our third move since we got married 10 years ago.  However, this one, this is the hardest.

Sure, you could say it's because I am pregnant, I am being over emotional.  But, when it comes down to it, I will typically where my emotions on my sleeve.  Those who know me, can read me like a book from a mile away.  Though I may try to cram it all down inside.

I think a hard spot for me is that we've been through some pretty crazy ups and downs...like losing our daughter.  We've had many twists and turns, especially as our son has grown.  There are things about our current house I really like and will miss.  But even more so, my son has started to recognize when we are close to home.  And when we are pulling up, he responds with an enthusiastic "there we are, home".

Yes, I know he will get used to the next house.  But I can't but to help to feel a twinge, a knot, saddened when he says those words.

I find myself repeating the phrase, "change happens, this not the end of the story...it's the end of the chapter".  It's the end of the chapter in this house, but a new chapter will begin.  We will continue to create memories, we will have ups and downs, we will have twists and turns.

So, as we go through the next days filling some of our time packing and getting ready to move, then finally moving, we will also continue to create moments.  Moments that we can take with us, moments that we can recreate where we are going, keep our connections and build new ones.

Don't close the book...turn the page and continue to write the story.